LOVE LIKE A SUICIDE
HB april 2011
v.1.
bustin’ out the windows, slammin’ the doors
throwin’ out the ornaments that she once wore
dreamin’ of a better coat than she put on
leave him, she would, on his broken down throne
<<lick>>
makin up excuses for missin’ her scene
late morning lay-outs dissected her dreams
the first time around she laughed at his jokes
they’re not quite as funny, when they get caught in your throat
(…can I love without killing me?...)
she continues to run
and tries to become a tiny piece
of what she thinks he needs
she believes all the lies
inside her mind and runs to him
just like a suicide
v.2.
she just wanna hold him without all the lines
without the trouble gettin’ them behind
without the jabs, the words that can cut
“don’t try to fix me, let me be messed up”
(…can you love without fixing me?...)
“love me just as I am
cause that’s what I am, and that should be
all that you ever need”
she continues to hide
the real her inside, and bend to him
just like a suicide
bridge
the uncomfortable skin, the burn and the ink…
will he like it this time?
will he like it on me?
is true love a memory?...
swelling with tears as her world comes unglued
she’s a body of water they all can see through…
(chorus) she continues to hide
all of the signs, to cover up
pieces of damaged pride
sweet relief in her eyes
the pain of surprise to see that she
loves him like suicide
(outro) when, she pushes aside
the darkest of lies, he runs away
….GUITAR HOOK….
try, expose all the lies,
stand up for your life, for every right…
….GUITAR HOOK….
stand, expose all the lies
the pretty disguise
….GUITAR HOOK….
don’t continue to hide all of the signs
and ask,” is your love like a suicide?”
IF I COULD
liz hargett & hank barbee 7.4.2010
If I could play the game of life
Like I could play a hand of cards
I’d hide the best ones
Cheat the bad ones…
If I was dealt the flush royale
I would take my winnings out
Run as far as
Stay as long as…
If I could I would
Go anywhere with you, my dear
If I could I would
Run away to somewhere new
Or the middle of nowhere
If I could I would
With you…
Oh, how I need a getaway
Where nobody knows my name
And they ask nothing
And I give nothing…out
Oh, how I want to cheat today
Stack an ace below an ace
Deal the bottom
Just to win one…time
If I could I would
Go anywhere with you, my dear
If I could I would
Run away to somewhere new
Or the middle of nowhere
If I could I would
these are the cards I have been dealt
so these are the cards that I will play
I only want to fill my days
with love and music…
I feel lost within the day
Will I ever find my way?
To the place where
I belong there… home
All the lies surround my head
And every tear that I have bled
Can you tame me?
Rearrange me?...please
If I could I would
Sing in cafés, and love my new shade
If I could I would
Get away to somewhere new
Like the middle of nowhere
If I could I would…
…Would you?
*thanks Lizzy
LITTLE MISS AMERICA JONES
HB 7.31.2011
America sings in her living room
and dreams that she’s gonna get away
she’ll turn in her keys and wave ‘em goodbye one day
she walks so strong as she’s lookin up
she talk the wrong side of the law
there’s a light in her eyes and dark in her heart
Little Miss America Jones
her beautiful ordinary
was blown across the burnin’ sand
her ribbons of gold slipped right through my hands
now she walks so tall with her head high
she talk an honest life of control
there’s a light in her eyes and a piece of regret in her soul
she wakes up loud from her darkest sleep
she’s proud now on both sides of the fall
there’s a light in her eye to cut thru the dark
Little Miss America Jones
her beautiful ordinary
was blown across the burnin’ sand
her ribbons of gold slippin’ right through my hands
she sings to me in my darkest sleep
she hides me under cover of the road
lies of surprise and pieces of hope
in Little Miss America Jones
**LAP STEEL SOLO **
her beautiful ordinary
was blown across the burnin’ sand
her ribbons of gold slipped right through my hands
her pieces of ordinary
fall upon our virgin hands
they lighten the load and make a new start
for Little Miss America Jones
just look for the gold right in your heart
Little Miss America Jones
Little Miss America Jones
Little Miss America Jones
TANGLED
hank barbee, new years 2010-11
I hope I can dream you in color tonight
I hope I can dream of that smile, it lights up my life
how do I miss talking to you?
and how I do miss lying with you lying on me
tangled all up, wrapped all around, missing your touch
when all I think of is holding you now
when you call, I will answer to anything
for I had not anticipated
feeling for you like I do…but I do…
how does she miss holding to me?
how I do miss feeling of her feeling for me
and how does she feel when she’s pressed up to me?
and how do I know if it’s meant to be, or if it is true?
where is that girl, the one that I love?
where is the one, that she’s thinking of on this chilly night?
new years eve, but the distance won’t keep me
out of reach, from her heart that heals me
and holding so fast at my side…at my side…
all this is hitting me so hard tonight, maybe I’m tired
my head is tight and wrapped around you
cause we just belong like an A before B
like I belong tangled with you when you’re tangled with me
well, I’ll come back, to Carolina time
I’ll leave the west to lonely Mountain Time
cause you wake me up inside…deep inside…
and when you call, I will answer to anything
for I had not anticipated
feeling for you like I do…but I do…
DELUGE
HB 5.11.11
there’s a deluge comin’ down
we’re baggin’ sand and stackin’ ground
pilin’ them up along every mile
gonna meet the flood in a little while
there’s a deluge runnin’ off
grindin’ an beatin’ on the levee walls
its an ocean motion pushin’ over field and lake
our pieces of home in a lost wake
we’re holdin’ onto nothing, “where we gonna go?”
salvation is on the river
muddy waters on the banks
where only scar and stain remain
all that once was, washed away
there’s a deluge comin’ down
we loaded the car and we’re leavin’ town
draggin’ what we can from the muddy street
and a pair of shoes for the little feet
trailer park momma, got her head down
two at her side, one in her gown
poolin’ up the sorrow as she wades along
she never had a thing worth bettin’ on
she’s holding on for life, “don’t let me go”
salvation is on the river
muddy waters on the banks
where only scar and stain remain
all that once was, washed away
hold me on, hold me on, hold me on the river
hold me on, hold me on, hold me on the river
hold me on, hold me on, hold me on the river
hold me on, hold me on, hold me on the river